This had been quite the fastest year – least that’s how I’ve found it. Last year I made some quiet stipulations to myself only they were not stipulations they were at most intentions and they’ve not stood up well to the year and the various maybe next months sliding along to which they’ve been treated.
Now it’s at it’s end or soon will be so 2015 will be either be a bumper roll over year or perhaps that which wasn’t in 2014 might be better left to nap things out.
This year I left one job and bumped into another. I’ve left too many jobs in recent times for a mixture of reasons but rumour has it, these shortened stints are not ideal in terms of cv building. That said jobs have become rather boring and there is nothing or if one is to vaunted towards caution little, to be said for the tedious and the pointless… Especially if years are to do what this one has show itself so apt toward.
In younger times I was firmly among the average or be it with a highly divergent level of deviation in either direction. It was always good to find the world awash with the smarter, the more diligent, skilful – people to migrate toward, to aspire a stretch.. My current role sees me in an organisation failing in its efforts but quite warm and comfortable in its situation none the less.. That said a creeping downsizing has been achieved as certain members have left and gone unreplaced. It is i find, uncomfortable to look around and see so little to offset ones own short falls, to learn from, to see purpose in argument – perhaps it is better to be beaten or to stand at risk of being the least than it is to be alone as to find no merit in entering..
I can see that they might make the sensible decision to close some aspects of the operation in 2015 .. The owners and even much of the most senior managers are comfortable and wealthy types but even so a business so reliably loss making as to appear like the last maker of the steam car, drinking warm beer, attending wonderful doos and parties most satisfied & contented in the knowledge that the frightful and uncouth gasoline alternatives will soon be turned away from by a currently misguided populous.. Such a business will at some time convince it’s backers that a better way may exist into which to plunge their finances
So I think perhaps I shan’t be here so very long – I could do with being somewhere for a decent stint – but the choice may not be mine in the end, a good decision to close things down may see that a decision not in my hands .. Even if it is in my hands, then myself as someone disinclined to warm beer, cricket and the quaint impracticality of steam power – the mutual discomfort may come to bob to the surface to vigorously.
It’s all so very public school – or at least how I imagine that way to be .. so very batten down the hatches and keep true and it’ll all work out in the wash good old boy mentality .. It may have much to commend it but it’s no more a loss to me as my agitations are to it . Me and my propensity to class war – they’re perfectly nice but sort of entitled in an understated way, like the world will just work our for them or will be wrong if it doesn’t – let the world come to me, if what I do fails well I shall jolly well just do it some more
was thinking of buying a property – it was to be one of the 2014 things – still probably as well go have that on hold .. Mortgages.. Incomes all that – probably not the best time for daring